The Betrayal of Sanity

A Memoir of Trauma Resilience
The Betrayal of Sanity opens with two impossible truths. I was born dead. Years later, I was almost murdered and left on a river bank to die.
And yet, I lived.
At birth, I was sealed in a body bag and sent to the morgue. Fifteen years later, weeks after beginning college on an art scholarship, I was bludgeoned, raped, and abandoned in a river. For two and a half days I lay exposed to the elements, slipping in and out of consciousness while the world carried on. Death came twice. Twice, I stayed.
Survival of this magnitude forces a question - why?
I came to understand my life was not random. Something within me refused to let my story end. I was denied legal recourse and reduced to silence. No institution could restore my well-being.
I stood at a crossroads. In a culture that equates justice with punishment, choosing healing can look like betrayal-or insanity. Yet I chose healing.
The Betrayal of Sanity traces decades as trauma lived on in my entire being. As a mental health nurse, I witnessed lives shaped by unprocessed pain. The body remembers what the mind tries to bury. Absence of visible scars does not mean a wound has healed. I refused to simply manage symptoms.
This memoir offers lived testimony-blending intimate storytelling with grounded spiritual insight and trauma-informed reflection, translating esoteric concepts into lived practice. It is written for those who have endured profound trauma and are searching for meaning. I did not just survive a nightmare, I dismantled its hold on me.
You are not beyond repair. I am living proof.